7 Years on the Run
I left England in 2011.
Adventure called but honestly, I was having a bad time in my home town and believed ‘no reason to stay was a good reason to go’.
I drifted but no matter where I ended up, I felt something was missing. Even though, I felt free and will always cherish this part of my journey as a martial artist. I was lost, often comparing myself to a wandering Ronin without a master.
I was always in adrenaline, looking for the next fight or new training camp and couldn’t stay in one place.
Basically, I didn’t trust myself to stay still as if my bad habits would catch up with me.
In 2018, following a financially crippling year of training in the States to save my MMA career. I transitioned into Muay Thai.
I focused solely on succeeding in this which meant moving again and establishing Boonchu International Muay Thai Gym as my base camp.
When I stopped running, I started winning.
*Ryan Halliday on Seneca's insight 'we flee from ourselves'. 'A life of restlessness is not what we’re after. A life filled with endless activity… in the end, it is nothing. That’s not where meaning comes from'.
So I let everything else fall away in the pursuit of something real **it took devotion and much energy, Bruce Lee puts it best.“What more can you ask for but to be real? To fulfil one’s potential instead of wasting energy on actualizing one’s dissipating image”.
To know yourself is a confronting and challenging undertaking, involving many sacrifices.
*** “You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are Real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand.”
I have preserved and will be sharing some of my stories and lessons from the never-ending road to self-mastery.
** Striking Thoughts; wisdom for daily living. Part 7 - The Process of Becoming. Bruce Lee.
*** The Velveteen Rabbit, Margery Williams.